False Reality

Looking forward to...

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 18:01:34 GMT

Thursday! Paycheck day + last test of the week & potential shopping spree avec my sis & seeing bummie
Friday! dance team practise
Saturday! No work :D sleeping innn hehes (but no money =[ )

Optimism is infectious :)

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 05:38:17 GMT

School is BRUTAL. Three tests this week, 20% on one, 25% on the other...7.5% on the last =_= wtf. But it's okay, I will study my butt off tomorrow...wait. I said that yesterday...*fail*

Okay, I vow to myself and everyone who reads this that Sunday will be hardcore studying day. No doubt about it.

- the procrastinator.

P.S. I love you, I love you, I love you :)
I still don't know how you can still make me so happy most of the time <3 Tehes Happy 11th month bummie :D
Keep making me smile when I go to sleep :D 120108

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 04:37:19 GMT

How do you keep making me happier as time goes by?
You're the exception to everything.
I really can't recall feeling stronger and happier in a relationship through time before :)

<3

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 15:41:50 GMT

I can't believe I used to blog all the time XD Now I'm too lazy to even make an entry a month!

School is gonna start soon, and I feel like my summer has been too short. Going to HK was awesome on so many levels but unfortunately I still want to shop all the time >=[ and I need to wait til September or so to go back to my job...being poor sucks :(

Anyhoo Frosh week training next week, kind of looking forward to it
JCrew bbq tmr :)

Overall, I love life & the people who are in it with me :D
I think I have the balance that I've been on the lookout for for years.

Lalalaa

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 20:19:04 GMT

Hmm I haven't posted here in forever
I guess it's cuz nothing has been rollercoaster-like for me lately :)
Life is awesome
I'm having an awesome summer, hanging out with friends all the time
And love is :) hehes but yeahhh going to hk in 5 days!!! I'm so excited :DDD
Shopping, here I comeeeee !

This past week:
Sunday - family friend bbq, then bbt with Pheebs :D
Monday - babysat
Tuesday - pmall then Karaoke with Nerine, Jess, Ahfa & Charliee, fun timess
- dinner at Yogi with Nerine & Jess...yummers
- ran in to Rosie ...fate ;)
Wednesday - babysat & then went to bbt with some of the hobo group :) good times
- sparklers! hehe
Today - babysitting, will go to park later w/ Nerine :)
Tmr - bbt with Vicks? :)

Fri, 22 May 2009 20:51:11 GMT

Sometimes, I think I'm pathetic.
It took me reading and informing myself about the case of Tori Stafford to realize
How lucky I am.
How my heart goes out to her and her family
And how that young girl could have been my sister...as in, it could have happened to anyone.
My sister is three years older but it still brings chills to my spine reading about the whole case.
I still can't believe that one of the accused is my age.
That's truly frightening to me.

I hope her murderers are convicted to a lifetime in prison with no parole. It is sometimes unfortunate that Canada doesn't do capital punishment.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 04:16:42 GMT

No matter how frustrated I get sometimes
The frustration can never be equivalent to the laughter
The silly moments
The dumb jokes
and all the fun...

In the end, there's no one who makes me feel more at home than you do.
♥

Halo - Beyonce <3

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:46:35 GMT

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo)

Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo

12/01/08 ♥

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 05:53:08 GMT

I don't need anything, really, as long as I have you :)

Superhuman - Chris Brown & Keri Hilson ♥

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 05:51:32 GMT

[Chris:]
Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat
On my knees

[Keri:]
But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible you see
Through the me
I used to be

[Chorus:]
[Chris:]
You changed my whole life
[Keri:]
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
[Chris:]
I'm feeling all Super human
You did that to me
Super human heart beats in me
[Both:]
Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman
Super human
[Chris:]
Super human
[Keri:]
Super human

[Chris:]
Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like i had it all along
I can see tomorrow
[Keri:]
But every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love could set me free

[Chorus:]
[Both:]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all Super human
You did that to me
Super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman
Super human
[Chris:]
Super human

[Chris:]
It's not a bird
Not a plane

[Both:]
It's my heart and its gonna go away

[Both:]
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do
Anything

[Chorus:]
[Both:]
Going going I'm going away
In love
You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all Super human
You did that to me
Super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman
Super human
[Chris:]
Super human

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♥

Wow my life looks way better than a couple of months ago LOL

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7.5
Mind:	6.9
Body:	8
Spirit:	7.5
Friends/Family:	6.2
Love:	7.7
Finance:	7.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

And here's another thingy I took

Greed:	Very Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Low

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

:)

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 02:42:55 GMT

It's Christmas!
Today was awesome...missed seeing someone but still, I'm very happy.
My family and I had an awesome day together & I'm feeling very warm inside right now.

It's funny to think that a couple of months ago, I gave up on love. But now...it's taken over me and many days, I cannot stop smiling or laughing :D I feel blessed.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Look in to your heart and you'll find love, love, love (8)

<3

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 01:51:30 GMT

I am unbelievably happy these days...I never thought things would be this great, ever :)
Maybe this Christmas will be way better than the last :D hehe!

Love, love, love. The solution to everything :)

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 01:33:16 GMT

I can't organize my thoughts anymore.
I think I'm becoming crazy...maybe that's what happens to people who are troubled but happy.

I hate this part right here - The Pussycat Dolls

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 23:39:19 GMT

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over do
It's cold outside but between us...

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tear's
I hate this part right here

Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the loss of the civilty
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you...

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause our ??? are in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

Running - David Archuletta

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 23:38:10 GMT

Words keep
Fallin' out of my pocket
Running late
Missed the train
Everything is dropping
Holding on, to my heart, in a rush I
Almost forgot it
I must admit it, I'm tired
But I'm coming to you
Don't know how far I've got
But I don't care, I'm not gonna

Stop runnin'
'Cause without you
I've got nothin'
I know you're somewhere runnin' straight to me
Don't stop runnin'
Don't stop

Keep on runnin'
Don't stop
Keep on runnin'...

Let's keep
Giving out
Breaking down
I'm falling
Head keeps telling me, this can't be worth all of this
Holding on to my heart, feel the rush
I'm ready to run forever
I'm holding it together
'Cause I'm coming to you
I don't know how far I've got but I don't care
I'm not gonna

Stop runnin'
'Cause without you
I've got nothin'
I know you're somewhere runnin' straight to me
Don't stop runnin'
Don't stop

I got my good shoes
I got my winning, girl, I'm focused
And I'm 'bout to navigate straight to you
And nothing's gonna stop me, girl
To keep me from comin'
'Cause I got to have every part of you forever

I'm runnin', runnin'
Keep runnin', runnin'
Keep runnin'
Keep runnin'

Stop runnin'
'Cause without you
I've got nothing
I know you're somewhere running straight to me
Don't stop runnin'
Don't stop runnin'

'Cause without you
I've got nothin'
I know you're somewhere runnin' straight to me
Don't stop runnin'

Don't stop running

:)

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 02:08:13 GMT

Overall, this week has been awesome. Way more interesting than I could ever have imagined. :D I feel like I'm finally back on track.

Re: Leave out all the rest

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 02:28:44 GMT

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

Credit: Linkin Park

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 02:26:30 GMT

How many times is this going to happen until I really become nothing but a shell?

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 04:14:14 GMT

I love my life.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I have so much love to give...
But I guess it wasn't meant for you. I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
I wanted to stay best friends.
But the truth is, we both know that it never would have worked out.
You want more than friendship, you get jealous, you get angry.
I want friendship, I don't get jealous. Of course, I get angry.
For more than a month now, we've been broken.
For more than a month now, the love has been gone.

I'm sorry.
But it is true that we should not contact each other anymore.

Day of Action Chants & Cheers (as requested by Carmen)

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:11:24 GMT

The students united
Will never be defeated

Le Peuple, uni
Jamais sera vaincu

What do we want?
DROP FEES!
When do we want it?
NOW!

Ain't no power like the power of the people
'cause the power of the people don't stop,
SAY WHAT?

FREEZE tuition
drop the Z drop the E
FREE TUITION, MAKE IT FREE MAKE IT FREE

We don't want no mac 'n cheese
Yo! Dalton! Drop the fees!

Education is a right
We will not give up the fight!

1...we are the students
2...a little bit louder
3...and we want ACCESS
FOR...each other
1...we are the students...

Des sous pour les ecoles,
Pas pour les monopoles!

We've to beat back
The corporate attack
We've to beat, beat, back
The corporate attack

........students under attack
what do we do?
STAND UP, FIGHT BACK!
(college students...law students...women students...engineering students...high school students...part-time students...graduate students...medical students...)

This is the debt that never ends,
Yes it goes on and on my friends.
Some people started paying it not knowing what it was,
But we'll continue fighting it forever just because...

Liar Liar, pants on Fire
You promised fees would not go higher!

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Oh man...today was amazing! I love our spirit, hopefully we made a difference :D

AWKWARD

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 01:37:21 GMT

Today must be national pervert day.

I crossed the street to this supermarket and some guy said "sexy" when he passed me, and I pretended not to hear.
And if that weren't bad enough, another weirdo talked to me when I was walking there:

Him: You have nice legs!
Me: Thank you...?
Him: You chinese?
Me: Yes...?
Him: How old are you?
Me: 18....
Him: Do you have a boyfriend?
Me: No...
Him: Sooo where are you headed to?
Me: I'm getting something to eat.
Him: Me too! What's your name?
Me: I don't think I have to tell you that.
Him: Why not?
Me: I don't know you?
Him: How do you meet people then?
Me: Ummm I have friends?
Him: Ohh so your friends hook you up with others?
Me: Er...
Him: Oh okay...well, nice meeting you, bye (then he walks to Wendy's)

Er....=_= awkward much?!

Given up

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 06:38:56 GMT

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
[end bridge]

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

credit: Linkin Park

Mary's Song (Oh My My My) - Taylor Swift ♥

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:03:15 GMT

She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree
Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I...
Oh my my my my

Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside till the morning light
Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle
Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said I do and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We'll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I

I'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine
I'll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my my my...

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Cutest song :)

Tied Together With a Smile - Taylor Swift

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:01:06 GMT

"Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone"

Borrowed from Izzy, saying what I feel

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 04:38:48 GMT

Have you ever felt like you should just give up? Have you ever felt like you're in somebody's way and should just get out of the picture for good? Have you ever felt like nobody ever cares how you feel? Or like, they ask you, but they generally don't care enough?

Well, have you ever felt that your work, thoughts, and feelings were important, but not important and special enough, making it seem like other people are more special? Have you ever felt like the attention you get is not as awesome as other people's? Have you ever felt totally defeated and not good enough, not matter how you've always been there for a person? Have you ever felt that the other person doesn't give a fuck's damn about you when you really needed somebody, but when they needed you, you were there all the fucking time?

Also, have you ever felt like your attachment to somebody never turns out right and it kills you on the inside? Have you ever felt unwanted with your closest friends, but your other friends that you barely hang out with seem to treat you better? Have you ever felt like an idiot for thinking the other person might like you? Have you ever felt like bursting into tears because you feel like you're drifting apart from some of your closest friends?

Have you ever felt excluded just from missing out due to personal life crisis? Have you ever felt that nobody ever shows their appreciation for you? Have you ever felt that people just don't seem to accept your caring words, but accept and are happier with another person's gift, even if the gift was meaningful? Have you ever felt like your promises to somebody were broken all the time?

Have you ever felt that people should treat you the same as you treat them? Have you ever felt lonely on the inside, but put on fake smiles, laughters, and attitudes on the outside? Have you ever yearned for love from the opposite sex? Have you ever felt that the other person only talks about himself/herself all the time and makes condescending comments on your life and actions? Have you ever felt like somebody is invading your fandom when that person has already invaded part of your life?

Have you ever felt bad for doing something good, but not good enough for the other person?

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Izzy, I know how you feel...and wow, it's just like a duplication of me right now
Don't know if you'll read this
but if you do
hope you aren't offended
we should talk sometime, haha.
Sighs...